Wednesday, December 24, 2003

Two pink lines

You know my fascination with lines. It has turned a corner and decided to re-emphasise itself by appearing on things I rather not handle. Two, pink, little, lines.

Just when I think, "Okay, great. Life is pretty much settled. I mean, hearts are going to be broken but you know, we all knew it was coming and it was going to happen... so why all the hoopla right? Yes, my heart and his heart will hurt like never before but I know it's temporary and I'm in a happy place right now. I know my future will be better if I just look forward but WHY THE FUCK DOES OTHER STUPID ASS FUCKING SHIT HAVE TO HAPPEN?!?!?!?!?"

*looks up* Thank you God. I'm starting to really hate you. I mean. FUCK THIS SHIT OKAY. FUCK THIS SHIT.

I need you, my dear viewer, more than ever. I miss you so much. I have so much to inform you and so much crying to do. I just want to be home. I'm miserable. I've been miserable for the past three days. Today though... I'm feeling a little better. At least I've stopped throwing up or feeling nauseus even and my tummy has sorta settled. I figured it must be just stomach flu.... right? Yes.

Convincing yourself has never been such an art.

::me:: at 13:30