Friday, April 09, 2004

Stupid book.

So here i am, stuck in my amazing boredom and completely wide away. That stupid book has driven me to stay awake in my room. I'm afraid to venture out into the living room alone. Bastard.

Let me recount my days to fill up some time and hopefully, i'll bore myself asleep. I've had much to think about these days. I cut myself on Wednesday night, after a very long time I might add. I'm always given a reason to do stupid things. Well. I give myself a reason to do stupid things... but anyway.

Mother's been acting up again. Usual. Drama. Bullshit. Moh's been... worrying me to say the least. Many issues going on with him. And indirectly, me. I don't know how to handle it. It's too big for me to address over the phone and too scary to even deconstruct. I'm just not going to go there and continue to do my running act. You'd think I'd be tired by now...

I have nothing to say right now, honestly. Perhaps too much on my mind and it's all jumbled up. I just can't seem to untangle all the shit that's been clumped together. I know there's something beautiful in there but I don't have the means to enjoy it right now. I did have a great day today though.

Thank you, you. The moon was feeling me tonight. It's been watching us non-stop. Cheeky.

::me:: at 10:53