Saturday, September 04, 2004

Good Beginnings come with Bad Endings

And sometimes, they start out just as bad. And today started that way and yesterday started that way and before yesterday started that way and the list goes on and on. I'm stuck in this gigantic rut and I don't know how to get out of it.

Even when approached with perhaps a semi-solution, I can't seem to take it up because thinking about it would make me feel even shittier. It's this fucking evil cycle. Wrong after wrong after wrong and then it gets worse.

It's starting to get scary because I can't seem to function normally. I can't sleep, I can't stay awake, I can't eat. But what's fucked up about the not eating is the fact that I can feel my body eating itself and at the same time, gaining weight from it so what's the use of starving when you're not going to get that wonderful anorexic glam.

Loser man. Big Fat Fucking Loser.


::me:: at 15:33